hello!!! this post is a couple months old but i want to ask: i found atelier recently too & relate very much to the energy described above. however i also thoroughly identify as a mid agency low ambition person and i feel a bit strange about having my belonging in a group predicated on the coolness of my achievements when i've previously worked so hard to divorce my essence as a person from what i do. do you think about this? and if so how to reconcile
thank you for your comment!! honestly this is something that i haven't figured out either. i think about this a lot; my lifestyle and personal neuroses mean that most of my inner turmoil comes from not doing enough. but it's also true that i derive huge amounts of meaning and satisfaction from the things i do.
at the same time i do strongly believe that we are what we create. i think my personal goal here is not necessarily separating my identity from what i create, but i do strive to see creation in its most truthful sense.
creation doesn't necessarily end in a product that is easily sold or a clear increase in shareholder value. i can create an enjoyable meal, i can co-create a fulfilling conversation. today i created a wonderful experience for myself to enjoy by spontaneously getting tickets to see a movie alone.
there are times where i grapple with this and get caught up in status games and the shininess of my pursuits. i do often feel inadequate when it seems like i'm not being productive enough (which is very often), but i try to accept that this is a struggle that i will go through because of the life i choose to lead and the ambitions i have. i want to create deeply resonant joy and love for myself and others, and i need to work hard to achieve this.
i'm not sure if this is useful to you as we probably have different goals and aims, these are just my personal reflections, but i hope it's helpful!
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hello!!! this post is a couple months old but i want to ask: i found atelier recently too & relate very much to the energy described above. however i also thoroughly identify as a mid agency low ambition person and i feel a bit strange about having my belonging in a group predicated on the coolness of my achievements when i've previously worked so hard to divorce my essence as a person from what i do. do you think about this? and if so how to reconcile
thank you for your comment!! honestly this is something that i haven't figured out either. i think about this a lot; my lifestyle and personal neuroses mean that most of my inner turmoil comes from not doing enough. but it's also true that i derive huge amounts of meaning and satisfaction from the things i do.
at the same time i do strongly believe that we are what we create. i think my personal goal here is not necessarily separating my identity from what i create, but i do strive to see creation in its most truthful sense.
creation doesn't necessarily end in a product that is easily sold or a clear increase in shareholder value. i can create an enjoyable meal, i can co-create a fulfilling conversation. today i created a wonderful experience for myself to enjoy by spontaneously getting tickets to see a movie alone.
there are times where i grapple with this and get caught up in status games and the shininess of my pursuits. i do often feel inadequate when it seems like i'm not being productive enough (which is very often), but i try to accept that this is a struggle that i will go through because of the life i choose to lead and the ambitions i have. i want to create deeply resonant joy and love for myself and others, and i need to work hard to achieve this.
i'm not sure if this is useful to you as we probably have different goals and aims, these are just my personal reflections, but i hope it's helpful!